dear becoming

on being in between who I was and who I’m becoming

dear becoming,

I didn’t know this part would feel like this.
I thought you would feel like clarity,
like finally knowing where I’m going,
like everything would make sense.

But instead, you feel like a transition.

Like letting go of what no longer fits,
without fully knowing what comes next.

I’ve walked away from things
that weren’t aligned with me anymore.
Things I once thought I had to hold onto.

And now I’m here
not who I was,
not fully who I’m becoming.

Just… in between.

There’s a quiet uncertainty in this space,
but also something honest.

Because for the first time,
I’m not trying to become someone else.

I’m coming back to myself.

Slowly.
Consciously.

Learning who I am
without the noise,
without the expectations,
without the versions of me I created to belong.

And maybe becoming isn’t about finding something new.

Maybe it’s about remembering
who I’ve always been,
and choosing her,
again and again.

Even when it’s unclear.
Even when it’s uncomfortable.

So I’ll stay here.
In this in-between.

Not rushing,
not forcing,
not abandoning myself to feel certain.

Because this time,
I want to become
in a way that feels true.

With love,
Me.

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building a life that feels aligned with what I’m here to give.

More, soon.

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